1 year ago
Friday, September 18, 2009
Tonight hasn't been too great of a night for me.. but lets start off on a good note! After my last class today, I went on the 'oh just lovely' clemson university campus, to the parking service place! On my way to this lovely building I passed many things that i had never seen before at clemson- for example, Harcombe which one of the cafeterias at clemson, also i passed many dorms and places where classes are! so that was pretty cool i guess! so after all of this i finally got to the parking service place, long story short i talked to the lady, and she said that when you're issued a ticket for the first time, its just a warning and dont have to pay it.. well.. i didnt know that, so i just paid the $10 the first time, so today she said that this second one would be counted as my free one, UM THANK GAH! it was the $96 dollar one! *mama and daddy were happy about that one* haha! so now what do i do about going to fca thursdays? well i now i have temporary parking permit for clemson! so yay, thats the good news! the bad news is that i am bored out of my mind and really dont like have lots of friends like i had when i was back home! tonight was the first time i actually felt "alone" i guess you could say. My roomate went out of town, so its literally just me! :( my other friend that i normally hang out with, went on a date, she offered for me to come stay with her after, but i just feel like i need to have myquiet time and just talk to God for a while. anyways, i get so off topic haha! but i went to target tonight to get a few things, everyone i saw had some one with them, and it was just me all alone, i felt like such a loser. i hated it! and walking in to target made me get this huge lump in my stomach, i didnt like it. it was like walking into a new place and new things and new people, and i didnt like that either. even though most targets are all alike, it felt so different to have my mama, or SOMEONE there with me! :( i dont like doing things on my own, clearly. I just want to meet lots of friends, and always have something to do! because lately i havent.. So please just keep me in your thoughts and prayers, i need them!
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You keep leaning on Him, Tay Tay, and He'll take care of you! Before you know it, He will bring some amazing friends into your life, I have no doubt. I hate being lonely, too, but I have found that these low times have made me much stronger. Don't give up, girlfriend. Happy times are just ahead!!!!
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Tricia
Taylor, the Lord is teaching you so many thigs right now, isn't He? Probably some things you don't even realize. Going off to college is such a huge transition. You are doing so well. I remember my first few months at PC...I hung out with my roommate 24/7. We clung to each other (even though we'd only known each other for a few weeks)b/c we didn't know how to make new friends. We were placed in a room that wasn't even a dorm across campus away from everyone else b/c of overflow. So, we felt like we weren't making new friends like everyone who was living in the dorms. I know the feeling...but am so proud of you for going to FCA and getting out there.
ReplyDeleteBy the end of freshman year, my roomate and i went separate ways and I had so many new friends by then. I promise you'll make friends...just give it time. The Lord is working for your good at this very moment! Remember that! And don't be afraid to ask God for new friends...ask and He will give you the desires of your heart...He knows and wants to give you godly friendships, just keep on askin! :) He loves talking to you! Take advantage of this "alone time" and devote it to Him (maybe that's why he is forcing "alone time" on you...trying to get your attention!...just maybe :)
I promise I understand and have felt everything you are feeling!
Call me anytime you want!
I get lonely sometimes too, at home all day just me and Durham :)
love you
that made me cry court! i love you! :) thank you so much!!!
ReplyDeleteMy baby girl....I am praying for you!! mama
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